Wow, that sounds alot like my situation papa box, im 33 and I am living in the wake of all my mistakes too. I left Ohio to come home a little over a month ago, and im spiraling, I dont even have the right medical coverage to go to the doctors I need. I cant work due to changing health situation, they took my disability and my benefits in January (what a way to kick the year off) I thought I could go to Ohio to start a new but here I am back where I started. Things arent looking good for me, I have no income and I keep facing road blocks with every idea I try to come up with. I have no idea where my life is going, feels like ill be in the ground much sooner than expected. Doesnt feel right to sit here and play games all the time while my family abuses one another every single day and I just want away from it all again, the peace and serenity away from all that I gained in Ohio didnt take long to cease and the realization that Melissa's friends and family treated me like shit hurts and its part of the reason I had to come back and I am heart broken about that because my life partner is gone from my life for now. I have really done it this time, I cant apologize enough for being sick and needing help to get my life back together, so its just easier to cast me off. Only the small stuff ever works out for me.